a friend of mine told me few minutes ago that she was convinced to create her very own wordpress because of me. apparently, i was her inspiration. like me, she also wanted to keep her real identity to freely express herself. may nahawahan ako sa pagiging emoterang blogera. i don’t know if that’s a good thing but i’m happy to help others especially the heartbroken ones just like me, even if it was just by being a channel of her awareness of this kind of potential form of release.

so yeah, maybe it really is true that no matter how ugly things may seem, it will always have a good side – effect, for this matter.

so yesterday was a typically happy day. hanged out with some friends after work. we just sat around and soaked ourselves with our own share of funny/green/serious/sad/scary story. and it was so nice to see and feel their concern and efforts to take care of you and to help you get by your emo-love-story in their own simple ways.

they gave me pieces of advice that you would think of as just another senseless joke but if you’d try to look deeper, you’d realize that they have a point. they just don’t want to bombard me with pieces of advice in a serious manner, i guess.

oh well, after all the aching and crying, you’ll realize that friends are all you have left. friendship is something you’ll never lose. and with them in my life, i think i’ll manage to be happy despite my fucked up love story.

while i’m downloading songs from limewire, i thought i might as well make use of the time instead of waiting as the download completes. it’s already been a long while since i last updated my playlist. see, i’ve been such a downer lately, which really sucked big time. i feel like i’ve been too detached from my old self. and now, i’m on the process of trying to reconnect to myself. well, lame as it may seem, i’m very hopeful that music will help me reflect on myself and my life. it did work its magic for me the first time so maybe it will work again for the second time.

i recognized another consolation that i’d probably or should i say, “must” get after this phase of my life. i know that i’d come out of this alive and as a better person. yeah, i’m a survivor. i know i’ll make it. i just didn’t think that my battle would be this hard. that’s also the reason why i’m thankful to God because He gave me true friends, who have been my source of strength since day one. i just can’t imagine what my life or what i would be like without them.
oh, i ♥ my music and my friends.