I THINK YOU’RE MOVING TOO FAST.











{June 12, 2008}   i guess it’s over

yes, i think i just died today. oh wait, let me rephrase that. i felt that i died today. my life’s officially over and though it’s against my will, i have to move on and start a new one. but see, i don’t know how. i don’t know how to move on. yes, i can buy all the books that provide tips on moving on or anything of that sort but hell, i’m not even sure if i can do it. i don’t know where and how to start. i don’t know how to start living without xyz.

yes, he broke up with me. and i don’t know how to get up. i’m clueless.

i’ve never felt so lost like this before. i want to start my quest on finding myself but where do i begin? and how do i do it? i felt like a part of me has died when he asked me to let him go. but what choice do i have? i don’t want to be selfish and deprive him of what is really his in the first place. i’m trying to comprehend everything. i’m trying to understand.

i’m trying. and it’s fucking hard.



Harold says:

Hi! I saw in my stats page that you viewed me and that I happen to be included in your blogroll.

Frankly speaking, I’m thankful. Hehe. Anyway, I do respect your request for discretion as I only have a hunch of who you are — a former student.

Regarding your problem, though this unsolicited, I say take it little by little. Don’t fool yourself into believing you can forget him in a snap. Moving on is a process and it can be long or short. What you can do though as you undergo the healing process is surround yourself with friends and family, and another diversion — a new hobby, a new job, or any activity that could make you take your focus off your ex. It’s during those idle times when sadness strikes!

Believe, too, in the saying, “You have a choice.” So, if you think too much about him, you’d really feel sadder. If that happens, nudge yourself and say, “I have a better use of my time than to think about (name of ex).”

I hope this helps. Not easy, but we all have been there. :D

Learn to appreciate also what you have.

We’re lucky to even be alive now. So, cheer up.

:D



eras says:

Aaaawww.. Thanks so much “Sir” :D
ang galing niyo naman manghula.. bigla ako naintriga kung may hunch kayo kung sino talaga ako?? or basta alam niyo lang na former student nyo po ako? :)

Anyway, thanks sa advice sir. I’ll keep that in mind.
Umalis na rin po si Ma’am Sasa? Sadness.
Nabawasan nanaman ang maganda sa devcom faculty.

Thanks again Sir. God bless!



marian says:

one step at a time sis…

don’t rush…

stand up when you’re ready…

you’ll know it =)



eras says:

I wish it was that easy Marian. I fucking wish it is. I feel so empty right now.



marian says:

it’s easier said than done nga daw…

shitty feeling talaga pag empty… but it’s part of the process…

you can do it… =)



eras says:

Yeah and imagine, i deal with it every fucking day. Minsan masarap na talaga sumuko.



marian says:

i totally understand where you’re coming kahit ako ganyan din right now..

pero would you let it win? i mean yung longngness and all that sad feelings? yang kasi mdalas ko tinatanong sa sarili ko.. it’s hard pero it’s part of it
wala namang magbabago kung sumuko ka.. pero kung hndi ka susuko.. maraming changes maraming lesson na matututunan and things na marerealize.. =)

wag ka papatalo sa devil (sadness) from the beginning naman it won’t do us any good kung mag gigive up tayo.. we can do this.. =)

ano ba pinagsasabi ko? hahahaha pasensya na ganyan din kasi ako dati.. hanggang ngayon naman pero i could say much better kaya ikaw kaya mo din yan.. =)



eras says:

Kaya pala ganyan ka mag-advice sis. How I wish katulad mo ako, na nasa phase na ng acceptance. I wish I can be that strong.



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